Evil eye, side eye

You know the look. 
People you don’t know, at least you do not think you know them.  People who look at you like you did something
really bad to them, and they are going to get you back somehow.  But you do not know them!  You just know you have never met them
before!  You sit for a moment, going
backwards in your memory bank, trying to place the name, the face, the name and
the face.  But you just cannot place the
person.  You cannot place the person
because you do not know the person!
Stop hurting your brain muscle trying to place that
person.  You really do not know them, and
they do not know you.  You may remind
them of someone.  You may be wearing a
dress or pair of shoes they like.  It is
after all, usually the petty little things that wake up the green eyed
monster.  But what this person or these
people do not know, and what you do not need to tell them, is what you had to
go through.
You see, people do not understand, and in many cases
will never understand, what you had to go through to get where you are or where
you are going.  They do not know that
some days you forget to eat because you become so involved in the plan. They do
not know that most days you do not lay your head on your pillow until 2
a.m.  They do not know the relationships
that have fallen away, relationships you thought would last forever.  Relationships that fell away because you did
not or could not nurture them; or because God said ‘no more’, to those
relationships.
They see the end results, and they make little
guttural noises as they walk by you. 
They make little comments that they somehow hope you missed and
understood at the same time.  They gossip
about you to people who will either think for themselves, or not.  And they keep tabs on you without encouraging
you.
But know this: when you set out to follow the plan,
whether it is a dream you have always had, or something God told you to do; just
do it.  Do it knowing that not everyone
who started on your journey will finish with you.  Not everyone who smiles with you wishes you
well.  Not everyone will be able to keep
up, because it is not their journey, it is yours.  They will need to find their own path.
Because they are no longer on the journey with you does not mean that their
journey is not just as important, it means it is their journey. 
Portions of your journey will be lonely even if you
are surrounded by people, because you are the one who heard the word.  What you heard clearly may sound like
foolishness to others.  Know that the
handful of people who remain, who encourage you even if they do not fully
understand, are gems. Be thankful for them.

Do not worry about the evil eye from strangers or
people you know.  Concentrate on your
journey, because life is short.  Stopping
to make everyone comfortable with you, with your journey, will not be possible;
and in many cases not worth it.  Do not
allow yourself to become bogged down in nonsense and noise.  Smile, do your best wherever and whenever you
are, stick to your schedule; and don’t forget to eat!

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